On the Eve of my 29th Birthday

I've decided to give myself an early birthday present: permission to end this blog.

Obviously my posts have been few and far between, and let's be honest, pretty boring as of late. Yes, it was lots of fun to share about our engagement and our wedding planning, which I frankly thought I'd be a lot more into. The truth of the matter is, I am happy. Boringly happy. And blogging about that just isn't...necessary. Or that fun for me. I'd rather hunker down with my journal and capture all of those little moments for myself and not an audience.

This blog has served me well. It's gotten me through the highs and the lows, and boy, there were some very low lows. The comments of support and encouragement from all of you helped pull me out of the abyss of depression and discouragement. And, it was a lot of fun to capture my short, but entertaining dating career. But, I'm no world-class blogger and my writing is just as good as the next person's. It's been mostly an outlet for venting and processing for a time when I needed it desperately.

But now? I need a break. This blog began when I was in a much different place, and there are days when I think the connection back to that past isn't particularly helpful. So, maybe I will start a new blog. Maybe I'll use my real name and post real pictures. But for now, I'm going back to pen-to-paper journaling, something I've done since I was a kid and something I've not done much of lately.

Tomorrow night as I blow out my birthday candles (on the cake that Carolina Man is making me) I won't even need to make a wish. What a beautiful realization.


11 comments:

  1. Sad to hear that you are ending the blog but so happy that you are happy! I hope you and Carolina Man have a happy, fulfilling and loving life together. If you ever start a new blog (and I hope you do), let the blog-o-sphere know. I will totally read it.

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  2. I totally understand. I have been following your blog from way back and have seen (and appreciated) how you shared what you were going through all the way up to your happiness and fulfillment now. Indeed, I remember wondering in the early years when your boss wanted to introduce you to Carolina Man, if he would be IT somehow and you just didn't know it then. Something different was echoed across the blogosphere even then.

    So happy for you! If you do start another blog, please keep in touch. You may not want to announce it here, preferring to start from scratch. If so, that's understandable too. I hope you drop me a line (either twitter DM or email) to keep me posted. :) Happy birthday!

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  3. I'm so sorry to see you go. I've really enjoyed reading your blog. As I once told you, you inspired me to be positive when I was in a really bad place and I'm so happy that you have found your happiness. Good luck to you and if you want to share wedding photos I would LOVE to see them!

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  4. noooooooooooooooooo I wanted wedding picturessss!
    I'm happy you're happy, though.

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  5. Well, happy birthday! Thanks for allowing me to read about your journey. I have identified with you in a lot of ways, as it seems that we were going through difficult breakups around the same time, and then found the right person afterwards. I have yet to get engaged, but maybe someday! :)

    Also I know that sometimes it's hard to know when to say goodbye, but this seems like the right time. Your blog had a purpose (to help you process rough times), it served that purpose well, and now you don't need it any longer. It's okay to let go. You are in a good place now! Best wishes to you and Carolina Man. I hope that you will let us know if you start a less anonymous blog someday! I would love to see wedding pictures!

    Take care,
    Aubri

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  6. I'm really going to miss reading your posts but I totally understand why you're choosing to end this. And I have to say I am so ridiculously happy that we met through blogging. I feel like I found such a good friend in you and that wouldn't have happened had it not been for blogging.

    Don't forget to email and I cannot wait to see your beautiful wedding pictures on FB. And I must say, I'm so happy that you're so happy that life has gotten boring. That's totally a good thing =-)

    Love you lots!

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  7. I am not surprised, and I totally understand. I too have followed your ups and downs, and even shared some of them with you, as we met when we were at the same point in life....going thru a tough break up. And it was you who helped me to get thru it too in a subtle way, sharing our thoughts and stories.

    I only wish you happiness and fulfillment in your life. Yes, blogs are for venting and when you NEED to share. Now that your life is stable and borngly happy, your blog has served its purpose and expired.

    but I will wonder how you're doing from time to time, so perhaps I will follow your tweets?

    Best of love and happiness.

    felisha

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  8. Happy birthday and congratulations on everything! Glad to hear you are super happy.

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  9. OMG!!!!!! i'l miss you so much

    Happy belated birthday and stay in touch

    dolchic@gmail.com

    I would like to see wedding pictures

    Have fun with the planning

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  10. Closing this blog?
    I'm so sad to hear this as I followed your posts since 2009.
    I hoped with you, cried with you, was happy for you.
    Anyway: Thank you so much for sharing part of your life with us.
    Always good luck to you :)

    Greetings from Germany,
    Andrea

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