My Strange Addiction

The context of this isn't that important, but after experiencing a serious hangover after a dinner party, I was just screwing around on my laptop, hoping my headache would go away if I watched enough dog gifs on Buzzfeed. For no particular reason, I was looking at a blog written by one of my college classmates. She and I weren't exactly friends, but the school was small and our paths inevitably crossed from time to time. Since college she's gone on to have a pretty huge presence in the blogosphere and I've sort of followed her from time to time when I was bored at my job.

When I googled her website the other night, I found another blog listed second below her url with a mission to satirize everything she writes. I thought to myself, stupid trolls. They're just jealous of her success, right? But the more I read the critique (very hilariously written, by the way), the more I found myself agreeing with most every point. Now I can't stop reading it! I'm about a third of the way through 100 pages of this artfully crafted mockery, and I've stooped to using it as a mid-day reward when I've completed some big project. ("Come on, KT! Finish up this report and you can read 5 pages of the hilarity.")

At first I thought pretty poorly of myself to be participating in something that's just pure snark, especially towards an acquaintance whom I don't really have a personal problem with. But it's made me reflect on myself and my own online presence, which is albeit minute in comparison, and yet there is one thing all bloggers share: we choose to publish information related to who we are for public consumption. Admittedly, there is some bit of narcissism involved, right? We want people to read about our lives. It's categorically different from keeping a journal. Writing for an audience means that we open ourselves up for the good, the bad, and the ugly.

Back when more people read my blog, especially when I was posting about dates which attracts more voyeurs than talking about buying a car with your husband (and I am among the voyeurs!), I used to get the occasional snarky, even mean comment. I took it way too personally and would either delete it or try to defend myself. I couldn't believe people would hop on the internet to go shit all over someone's life choices.

And I still don't. But if I'm hoping to avoid the pervasive presence of trolls, I'd be better off just removing myself from the Internet altogether. The next time I get a comment that's "trollish" I'm going to let it ride. The last thing I want is to believe that anything I say is above reproach or criticism. At the end of the day, I need to have confidence in myself that I'm just doing the best that I can.

I will probably continue to block the crazy spam comments I get, although some of them are so horribly written they'd be funny to let fly.

So, fellow bloggers, what do you think? Do you agree with the points I've brought up? How do you feel about trolls?


4 comments:

  1. I've had a snarky comment here and there. Usually I take it too personally. I'm a people pleaser and I care WAAAAAY too much about what other people think so mean comments hurt.

    But the few nasty comments I've gotten have clearly been from people that don't really read my blog regularly and they don't know me. So I have to remind myself that it doesn't matter. And they're ALWAYS anonymous, which is silly. If you want to be mean, at least back yourself up.

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    1. I agree on the anonymity part especially.

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  2. I have gotten sucked into a similar site before. SO HILARIOUS. But I also found myself becoming hyper-critical of everything after reading it, so I have since tried to limit my intake (sometimes more successfully than others).

    Blogging is such an interesting medium. We are obviously putting ourselves out there any any one can say or write whatever they want about our content. My blog is pretty unknown so all of my thoughts on the subject are theoretical. That said, I do think that "letting it ride" is the best course of action, and the one I hope I will take in that situation.

    Thanks for sharing this--I've been mulling over these questions off and on over the last few days.

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    1. It has made me realize I don't desire a popular blog based on the goings on of my private life. Not that I ever would have one. It just doesn't seem worth the risk of privacy.

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